almost in atl...

So I'm about 2 get off work...yay. Now I have the rest of the day to do laundry and pack and dream about my fantastic adventure 2morrow. Traveling with my bh might be the most I've had n a while. Yay. I worked my ass off 2day. But not 2 much. I kept my hips just for u. *wink wink*

I can't wait omg. I really can't. I will talk 2 u cuz I wanna. U won't bother me. I enjoy talking to u. And yay for no crazy for a sec. I'm glad about that kick situation...maybe u should change ur number 2??? *shrugs* I'm getting added on to crazys family plan cuz she wants 2 pay my phone bill...lol. Ok.

And what's this u have planned missy? I'll take a surprise tho...

Oh yea...almost forgot. I got burned with 180 degree coffee on my hand and got cut with a box cutter today. Yay me. :-(

I love u. I miss u. Write me. I'll write u later.

Muah.
-itis.

morning love(r)...

So I didn't write u yesterday and I'm sorry. I mean it. I really do. Yesterday was great though because I got to see u. Omg. Wow! U really brightened my day. I went home after work and didn't do that much. Planned my trip 2morrow...yay. Sry about that bullshit ass conference btw. Eeek. I promise it'll b a little easier cuz you'll get 2 aim me all day. Lol.

I missed u this morning when I woke up. And ofcourse that was at the ass crack b4 dawn. Yea...who goes to work at 510am? I do apparently. So yea, I get off at 145. Whilinout.com. I love u. And ur a cheater.

Well I'm almost done with this ten so yea...I'll b thinking about u. I laughed when I saw u got a ticket. Lol. That shit wouldn't b funny 2 anyone else.

Until u write again....
-itis.

So....of course I'm reading ur words. Why wouldn't I? I got a little wasted last night....maybe a lot wasted. It helps me deal with a lot while I'm here. Idk what makes her think that she can check my shit and hold my phone waiting for reasons to disown me but wtf ever. I'm just like...there's only a few days left b4 I get the break of a lifetime...and when I come back I'll b focused on getting the fuck up out. That's after I come 2 ur birthday party though...

Sidebar....I'm tired of bitches talking and spying on me...callin her eveytime they see me anywhere. Its not fair and shit if I wanted 2 deal with this shit I would've stayed my ass in atlanta with those messy ass niggas I was around b4.

I aimed u and then I removed u from my buddy list. She's really killing me with this bullshit and I'm done with her harassing us. I'm done lying to her about my feelings just 2 get by. Really I am...its fucking draining. I'm a grown ass woman...and I'm not being treated like one...I feel like a fucking child.

But like I said...this will soon b over. I figured that there was gonna b more dl drama...that's why I created that other page.

Thanx for being patient my love...soon and very soon...we're going to b very happy. And if ever there's a problem or more fallacies arise n this time just write me. I'm goin gto check and write back. This is the only foolproof aspect that we have apparently...and I love it.

Dame besos. I work 2day. I'll call u so u can hear my voice. I'd love 2 hear urs right about now.

Muah.

-itis

....damnit. atl....

I need 2 b there and in a hurry.

....so my downelink has been checked and everything. Not cool.

.....she's holdin gmy fone again when she pleases.....

I'm just tryna make it up out of here with as little problems as possible.

She read ur downelink blog of in too deep. Had 2 talk about it all night and all day.

...came outside 2 go to work an dthere was a boot on the car. Had 2 pay 200 to get it off. How am I getting home from atl next monday?

This day has been a whole lot. I'll write.

I love u.

....pls bare with me for right now. I appreciate ur understanding. How ur day is goin better than mine.

-itis

...umm yea....2:41am

Feeling a little sick.
Mad about the fact that I didn't talk 2 u, but that wasn't either of our faults...faulty communication devices..
I'm gonna lay down.
Maybe u should still write me something, so I'll have something to wake up 2.
I love u.
Gnite.
Dreaming of u.


-itis.

aim lies.

I love the fact that u wrote 2 me. I've been trying to express my feelings for u in song/poem form for the past 2 hrs...

Yea so I've been trying to aim u but al I get is u signing off. So aim lies. I've been online, falling asleep waiting for u....


I love u,
-itis

....is this called missing u?

So I'm sitting here strumming away at my guitar and I cant help but hate the fact that u are who knows where an di can't ge in touch with u. Maybe ur at fur like u said u were gonna be....I hate this shit. I wanna talk 2 u and I can't. Well atleast ur having a good time right....? Missing me? I doubt it. "Dance ur pain away, i ve got problems...." I thought about goin out 2nite. Yep, I did. Oh well, that's as far as that went. Just a thought.

I love u. I want u 2 b happy, even if I'm not.

I thought u said that u'd write something real. Maybe that won't happen either....oh well.

Its not late and I don't feel like sleeping is my aspect. I don't work 2morrow. Idk what that means for u or us...

I wish I was where u are....always...that never changed....neither has my love for u. Muah. Get back 2 me soon. My heartaches when its away from u....

-itis....

Damn I hate my life right now....

a little sumthin for my lucky 7.

I didn't kno how much I missed u, missed her until I was swimming in the product of our passion. I found myself wanting to dive into u...not just my fingers, my entire body. It calls out 2 u just like ur body does 2 mine.

I miss u every minute of the day and I talk to u every minute of the day...in my mind. Lol. I'm not crazy but I am. Everything reminds me of u. Hearing songs that we kissed 2, made love 2, made jokes about...ur with me all the time. And don't get me started on mamma mia! Lol. And its funny cuz crazy said fawva(sp) yesterday and I only thought about u...and the fact that it just didn't sound right...lol.

I love u. And I think I kno that a little more everyday. I can't wait to go to atlanta so we can b free 2 b we...

I'm secretly sorry for messing up ur hair because it was beautiful...u r beautiful...u look at me and I melt. I bet it shows that I melt...lol. But I try not to show it sometimes.

I want u to climb on top of me and cheat. Lol. The end.

-itis.

a little sumthin for my lucky 7.

I didn't kno how much I missed u, missed her until I was swimming in the product of our passion. I found myself wanting to dive into u...not just my fingers, my entire body. It calls out 2 u just like ur body does 2 mine.

I miss u every minute of the day and I talk to u every minute of the day...in my mind. Lol. I'm not crazy but I am. Everything reminds me of u. Hearing songs that we kissed 2, made love 2, made jokes about...ur with me all the time. And don't get me started on mamma mia! Lol. And its funny cuz crazy said fawva(sp) yesterday and I only thought about u...and the fact that it just didn't sound right...lol.

I love u. And I think I kno that a little more everyday. I can't wait to go to atlanta so we can b free 2 b we...

I'm secretly sorry for messing up ur hair because it was beautiful...u r beautiful...u look at me and I melt. I bet it shows that I melt...lol. But I try not to show it sometimes.

I want u to climb on top of me and cheat. Lol. The end.

-itis.

....drinking myself into oblivion...

So I'm sittin in my house determined 2 see the the bottom of this 1.75l bottle of vodka. Trying not to drunk text anyone. I'm pissed and sad and everything else. I hate talking about feeling violated sexually. That shit sux and talking about it sux monkey balls. I wish I was happy again...or if not happy, atleast psuedo happy. *side note...its great that I can spell even when tipsy...*

I will try to write more if my motor skills are up to par...but I doubt it seeing as though I'm determined to FINISH...said bottle.

I love u. That never changed. And it won't. Talking 2 my bh who's trying to make it better.....hope ur thinking about me...

P.s....u aint write me heifer!....

-me

2day will b a good day.

So I'm sitting outside my workjob on my 10. I've been trying to read ur words since I woke up at 1039. I had 2 b at work at 11, but that's not the point. The district mgr is here 2day so I have 2 b on my p's and q's and shit. I wanna talk 2 u via aim my stormyperfection, but my fuckin aim keeps fuckin up. I watched the storm and saw u last night. Ur power, ur beauty, ur pain, ur love, ur vibrance, ur presence, ur ability to make me soaking wet....lol. *u know I had 2 throw that in there*

I get off at 445. I wish I could see u sometime 2day. I'm taking the shuttle to jhop after work 2 try and get n the studio or in the sds room.

.....*side note...eeewww I drank a red bull 2 the head as the first thing I put in my body and I just might throw it up....shit....that's not what's hot in the streets*.....
Write me please. I'll b waiting to read u.

-me...

...u r my babyboo...stop with this ?uestion mark. Lol. Muah. Hope ur day is goin well.

I love u.
Dame besos.

143.

So I'm sure u thought tha I was going to forget about writing u and I didn't so, ha. Today really reminded me of what I've been missing....what I feel is right...what I need....all of that. And there's truth in every touch, warmth in every embrace, and a sweet calmness that I have with u even when I feel like I'm going to implode if u look at me one more time.

...I ate again 2day...yay. I know ur excited about that. I hope u thought about me...lol...u say I'm ur every thought...hope that still rings true. I read what I wrote for u and decided to write a lot more...becuz u inspire me...and u say I inspire u...

I love u.
I need u.
I'm glad that ur in love with me.
And I cherish and appreciate u.

Dame besos...I kno that's ur line but...who cares?

-me

...my first...

She taught me sometimes to write on my taught canvas
And that some rhymes weren't meant to be seen
She told me to feel what I felt and to care about me for once
Realize I only live for one
And my happiness counts for something.
I wrote her happiness from sadness and then joined the two unintentionally
Woven together
Then she asked for the silver lining.
Tried all I could 2 stop from crying
As she glanced at me
Mentally held hands with me
She danced with me
Through the problems that arose
And God only knows that she's still the definition she texted me a while ago.
And I'm grateful
Very full
Of memories, hints, smells and remnants of smiles...
And here lies a new beginning....
More scribblings on this taught canvas.