wow. i am amazingly talented.

i can fuck up ur whole life in just one night. and here i am thinking that im trying to deal with the fact that my life is a pile of shit.

ppl are making demands of u that are unreal.

its funny. i have so much to say and then i cant say it all. because it hurts so much.

these ppl...ur family....idk....i just dont kno. i cant say anything about that/them.

let's keep em apart. thats what we'll do. well, u kno what? ur a little fucking late for that. AAAARGGH....im so fucking pissed right now. i cant even see str8.

i cant do this. i just cant. i love you. thats all.

she loves me.

I cupped my hand at u and I thought you'd never believe I was being serious. I didn't know if I was ok with that. But then I remembered thata u see me....all of me...all the time...and I can hide nothing from you so I told u. And I've felt better, a lot better since then.

I thought u would think I was crazy from what I said. I really did. I kept kickin myself in the head for explaining myself...even when I was talking. I says to myself..."this is gonna run her away...but I have 2 tell her the truth." And it didn't run u away. A part of me knew u would understand. Its just the vulnerable part that's like..."bitch, shut up!"

...and then u considered it...and I flew. I literally flew. It meant so much 2 me. I almost cried.

I love you so much. U have to kno that. I try and tell u and show u that as much as I can every day that I breathe.

U kno that I'd take care of u and the mini better than I would myself because that's just who I am. I think that's one of the reasons why u would even talk to me about this at all...but why else? Why else would u talk about it, consider it...see it played out in ur mind? Tell me...I have to kno.

....I love you.
......te amo.
........dame besos.

Uhmm so ok..ur amazing.

"Your love is crazy babe, not like you belong in an asylum, crazy babe...like the sun in the morning and the moon at night, like rain fallin from the sky, like trees growin from the ground...im astounded babe, by ur love for me..."

I love u so much...and im trying really hard to make ur birfdae the best ever but idk...I feel like I have ur heart, and how r u gonna live thru ur birfdae if im not there? Maybe im being a little selfish...but u tell me to do that...so if I am its ur fault. :P

Im fighting being upset. But u kno? Whatever. Its not about me, its about u. So wherever u want me to be I'll b...whether or not that means im uncomfortable or whatever. *sidebar thought...might b a secret but I don't think so--how r u gonna get bday ass if im not with u on ur bday? And I still want sex now...*

These past few days, though extremely tiring, have been the best few days I've had in a very long time. I hope u feel the same way. I mean, it has been riddled with bad vibes, nosy pplz and other tomfoolery but overall its been lovely.

--i still look at u and get butterflies...I wonder how u can get more beautiful each day...still haven't figured that one out yet.--

Edit....u blue baller. I knew u wasn't gonna put out...u kno what happens to girls who dont put out right? ....they don't get that fiya head! Lol. J/k...ok im done. Lol.
-my hand smells like u and that's perfectly fine.

Pls tell me that my time with u 2day won't be limited to these 14 hrs I got to spend outside the building u were in...:-( cuz that would absolutely suck...and then id have to FIND things 2 do. Things that don't involve crazy, who is stalking me btw. I really can't do this shit anymore. Honest blog. But I guess my problems, worries and woes aren't ur problems, worries and woes...:-(

I love u. I want 2 u come back. I want 2 spend some 1 on 1 time with u. See if u can make that happen...if not, I guess I'll have 2 settle for less....:-(....*and I won't stop making this face....*

-itis...the one who put [ urlife. ]

seuss love.

So I'm sittin in the bathroom all sexci like with candles and shit, 2 coronas and a clove. I miss u. I read ur away and it made my heart smile.

I promise I'll aim u all day 2morrow.

Write me?
-itis

P.s.- ur amazing. That's all.

my lavish darling...

So I love u. I love the fact that ur sane. That's great. Lol. U should keep that up. Atl isn't coming soon enough. I can't wait 4 our "first date." Lol.

I said I would write so I am...eventhough I'm talking to u.

Ur amazing.

-itis.