damnit

i feel robbed again...and i didnt think it would happen. i really didnt. im trying to believe that you know when you stopped being trifling and started matching your actions with your words, but parts of me cannot be 100% sure. little things like anniversaries are milestones that i cherish and as far as i was concerned i was committed to someone who only wanted me. i cant consider us being together when you had someone else preoccupying your time. shit like this makes me upset. im trying right now not to get heated but it is really hard. maybe one day i will feel like less of a fool. dont worry, im not going to cry or anything. but i am angry....this brings back the sting of the pain i have already felt. r u sure it was vanity weekend? i thought i knew u were there for me and only me at the time of my performance at red square but i was your ex then...idk. it bothers me that i dont have a specific marker. this is bullshit. im done.