ugh.

we spoke and things were better after a while. i got everything out that i could think of and tried to understand everything you had to say.

then there were days in between there where i found out some more things about myself and some things that I didnt realize irked me and I didnt know if I was being fair by keeping them to myself and just hoping that they'd disappear or try to wish them away. some things are smaller than others....i try not to stress over things because they arent good for my health, but sometimes you cant control what gets under your skin.

i feel like you leaving our conversation was a little dramatic. we couldve talked about it or something. we dont always talk about whats bothering you immediately after it happens. sometimes you need time and in this instance i didnt quite know how to express myself so the closest thing to expressing myself was saying that i was fine....and that wasnt a lie. I couldnt figure out anything else about what was going on with me so, fine is all I had to work with. I feel like there are things that may be jokes to me that rub you the wrong wasy from time to time and you just try and find a way to get over it. i feel like i've done the same on many occasions but since our last extensive talk i vowed not to do that because bottling my feelings led to a lot of frustration that couldve come out in an angry way. i wasn't mad about it, i was kind of caught off guard in a way. i dont know. it wasnt extremely serious but it didnt just roll off my back either. that doesnt mean that i want you to defriend her, it also doesnt mean that i dont trust you...

think of it this way, if i was talking to you and i was like, "yea so, i was talking to this girl on dl--we've been friends for a while and i call her my wifey and she calls me her hubby...i mean, we've been callin eachother that since we started talkin...but anyways..." idk....i feel like you would say something like, "i guess..." and decide not to feel some type of way over it...whether she was happily married or not. well...i believe that's wall I have to say about that for, idk...until you have something to say about it.

i think i was a little hurt when you said that trey could sing things to you and make you do things that i couldnt. its a sidebar random comment but i might still feel some type of way about it.

...if there's anything that i've left out i'll try and remember them and let you kno...i don't wanna bottle up any feelings anymore. its just stupid. maybe i'll feel better later.